Entropy of the Third Dimension.

I should be sleeping right now. Well. Maybe. I mean, if all goes well, I'll be leaving at 2 PM to meet someone an hour and...20 minutes away, so Google believes? 42 miles away, but 78 miles driving distance. I am stressing over how I'm gonna budget this. I made a commitment on Blizzard and refuse to get bad credit, I can make things work but it means I have to have found a job sooner...or received munnehs from relativities during the hollies. xD

But he does check out. I mean, I've done this almost stalker-ish test before on guys who might have been playing me, or not really interested, and they failed. He passes. Not active anywhere since long before I last had word from him, but at the same time I do wonder why I've not heard back from him. Theoretically he's supposed to be at work. Which should mean he can reply back to me and give me his address. But this has not happened...

I honestly imagine he did get drunk at the party last night, and may have skipped work. If so...honestly...I have to say I thank him. I don't like a guy I might date, drinking, but I have no control over him and understand...simply not talking to me when drunk is...greatly preferred than having drunken texts.

I'd go on but I'm losing motivation. Yes, friends, I have fallen into a depressed phase. It was made clear to me simply by...well, this. When I lose motivation, it shouldn't hurt and make me feel empty and...there's no real word for it.

I...hope things work out. I don't want things to end like normal...