Here I am again.

Again, I'm trying with a boy.

I think I've got him wrapped around my finger.

He's damned handsome. No lie. Every time I see him I think of how hot he is. When I first saw him, I thought I didn't have a chance. But now...

I wonder if I can love him. But if I can't, at this point, I've come to a revelation: I don't need to.

I've felt true love. I've known what it's like to not be able to stand the thought of dying and hurting the one you love. But I suppose it's better not to live my life that way. Or maybe not...I can't be sure.

I just hope I can hold onto him. I want him so badly. I hope he'll remain mine. I really don't want to have my heart broken again...

I can't even count the amount of times it's happened by now.

~ Anzel