Udder Confusion.

Dear Blogland,

Who the hell do I know from Singapore?

Signed, not-THAT-well-traveled

P.S. Feel free to identify yourself, I'm curious who reads this dribble.

The Flu Strikes Back

Whelp, now I officially have a fever, my thermometer even beeps at me. 101.1 F, or 100.2 F on it. (but it seems to for some stupid reason have the norm temperature at 97.7 so i have to do math when i use it)

This is my 2nd flu. Cannot beat the 1st one where my tonsils almost swelled entirely shut over my throat, leaving me having to drool if I planned on sleeping. But now, I have work.

Body aches, UGH. Chills? UGH. I just changed into flannel, and researched my thermometer and I have 100.4 F (sure of this now) temperature...and am roasting. Back to nudie. BAH.

Idk why I bother with my job. 17 hours this week, minimum fucking wage. Need to look for a new job. Tomorrow morning I have a college visit to plan things....sigh. I need to read up.

100.6 F now...YAY.

I wanna be healthy, this is NOT helping me figure my fucking life out.

I also want Derek to talk with me, but he's been too busy, bah...

Roasting, gtg, adios.

Chances Too Thin

Derek is a part of my life again....why? Sometimes I wonder. I vividly recall loathing him in former blog entries for what he did to me, twice now. But...

But there's a lot of reason why I didn't let him go...

My mom approved of him...he was like her Tim, like my Ducky...the dorky friend. Tim, the guy my mom should have married, but didn't...

She can NEVER approve of anyone else...she...can't...

He saved my life, so much...he's aggravated me before, hurt me before, but never, ever, with bad intentions...

He likes feeling wanted...I want him, and so he wants to meet me...Please...PLEASE...Karma, entropy, listen to me.

Entropy, listen, please. My only god in this world, you randomosity of this world...let he and I meet on June 25th. Let it work. Let it be as I've wanted for...so long.

I adore him and have been stalking him, lol. Creeping all over his fb and his bro's and his OkC. Not to be a creeper, but because I've been...SO bored recently. It's been absolutely boring as of late, he's been busy, and...I may be manic.

I've been waking up. AND STAYING. UP.

Must have been triggered by Derek coming back into my life, my entire world shifted, I feel...better. I'd say it's because of him, but he just triggered my body. I feel a physical difference. I dunno, chemistry is weird.

I am...likely gonna kill all of my phone minutes thanks to the goof though. Maybe it'll motivate me to buy a better phone, who knows.

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Slept on it. Derek IM'd me and I stopped writing this. xD Never gonna finish this, posting.

And The World Caves In

You know you had a rough work day when you don't even want to watch a funny video by your favorite internet celebrity.

Life is complicated, so are people. And the cute boys are NEVER interested.

Sigh. Missed a beautiful day, everyone said it was amazing out, EVERYONE. :( 11 to 8:30...

Today will grow a nest of pimples on my face, so much stress...

How does one keep 99 pokeballs in their tiny bag, and all those berries, and a bike..........

this is not sparta, i am lost

End It All

Physical pain atm, kinda wanna vomit. Got caught up late playing a game that I already was mad at myself for staying up late playing, now I'm in trouble. I've no one to hold me and I feel rather down...

*sighs*...less Hidden:Source for me...