Nadie.

My mind's not in the best place. Apparently Pepperann, or "Kaernk" as my dream mind labelled the spelling of her name, said something brilliant about love. And Derek can't wait to get back to me. Ha...as if.

With my luck this girl will see how amazing a guy he is and I'll lose out on him for good. Then again it sounds as if he's only known her a bit more than a week. But who knows, relationships are odd, and my odds aren't good.

It's hard at the moment because my fantasy boy has no sexual connotations whatsoever. When I was alone in the past I made an entire story of my character Nadie and her relationship with Nightcrawler/Kurt Wagner. I fell in love with his voice actor's voice in the X-Men: Evolution series. I close my eyes and he's there for my character who is over a hundred years old, but in a delicate unmoving state, as she has recreated herself.

She has atomic powers, and can manipulate matter. Unfortunately, in this way, she is a danger to herself, and has had to take many precautions never to harm herself accidentally in a dream. Kurt's the only one that is truly safe, because he can shift into her room and away, and she has found ways to send little messages to him if she needs him. Nadie used to be known as Melanie, and she never found true love. Nowadays she goes by Nadie, Natalie, Tani, Tabitha, Theresa...possibly more, but those are the most common. What she is called depends on how she is acting at that time.

Her body's covered with a sort of shield of her own making over time, of elements and atoms she couldn't easily manipulate, or that distracted her powers enough so she couldn't hurt herself. In a single moment she could turn her leg into a gas and lose it for good. She can create objects but living flesh is far too small, too complex, she can only make simple matters.

She often lies there and lets Kurt wrap his tail around her legs, holding her hand, telling him how she is afraid, how she is alone. He keeps it quiet from her about Melanie, who initially entrusted Kurt with care of her "child". Melanie did not have a happy life, and used all she learned to recreate herself, and giving her new self amnesia of most matters...

And a new chance.