Man Down.

Internet issues, chest tightness, Derek the Douchebag ignoring the fuck out of me...could it get better?

DayZ refusing to work for me, Morrowind crashing on me, having to close at work tomorrow with my least favorite bitch...

Derek you need to man up and stop being a fucking coward and running from the only damned person who really, really cares just because you wanna repress everything. God damn I hope one day I get you back and way in the future you get permitted to read my blog, so I can watch you wince at how much of an ASSHOLE you were. I'm thinking about asking Alyssa for your address but it'd be so awkward and...and I've...

As much as I hate you right now I don't want to lose you. *sighs* If you'd man up and talk to me...be willing to tolerate a little awkuerdity (my own word; unsure of spelling) , I could AFFORD. TO. HAVE. YOU. VISIT. ME.

I. COULD.

I have about $54.50 in change and far over $100 in dollar bills. But nope, you're a dick and you run.

"ive been frustrated, tired, sick and i take it out on undeserving people"

"Ok, time to catch you up to what has happened to me lately. The internship with the bills didn't happen. So I got depressed, didn't want to talk to pretty much anyone. Add in some family issues, and getting suspended from hockey for two games, I hated life at the time. And I unfortunately think I don't see you in the way you see me, and I hate that i let you down again. I don't deserve you in that way. Thats why I've been reluctant to talk."

*sighs*...quotes...from the past week or two...

I don't get you you damnable fuckwad. I'm so tired of the damned excuses. All of them I understand but god DAMNIT now you're PURPOSEFULLY IGNORING ME. I want you to hurt like I am right now. Karma, have your way with him. Knock some god damned sense into that boy...

Idc if I spam his phone, I don't care anymore. I am far more than patient. WITH HIM. JUST. HIM.

I'd rather sleep in a room of yellowjackets than lose you...

Because god damnit you're one of few real people with a good heart out there...stop making this so hard...man up...